xkissingcrimson

in san francisco and berkeley for the weekend.
not even thinking, let alone missing, the harbor area.

i love it up here.
its clean.
its exciting.
its perfect.

i never want to go home.
i want to stay foreverrr.


and the people im with are so amazing.
most of them :p

im at my lowest.
ive never been sadder for a longer amount of time.

i feel so deprived of life and happiness.
there's no coming out of this.


im done.

i dont feel the same about writing in livejournal.

i dont feel the motivation.

sometimes its good to write about things

but its even better to talk about them.

Gfunk,

Just a little note to apologize for the mean things i said to you out of anger.

I know I'm far from a textbook mother but my love for you is great and hopefully one day you'll understand some choices or methods I've made andused.

I dont have alot to explain to you cuz you are an old soul and are very wise, open minded and you stand out just being true to yourself.

Just know that im not mental, just unique and not afraid to let people see me fail.

The only difference between you and I, is you realized your individuality at a young ageand you stick to your feelings. I grew up very young and didnt get a chance to know myself because I was too busy taking care of everyone else. To be open minded, open hearted and non-judgemental is the greatest gift in this life. Dont ever let anyone steal your youth or hold you down. Remember, it's your life, live it for you cuz no ones gonna die for you when it's your turn to die.

I know almost everything I say is confusing but trust that it makes sense to me and
hopefully will make you smile when I publish my "nonsense."

So I know I dont say or really show it but I love you deeply and I'll always have your back no matter what!

(I'm really sorry i said "Fuck you", that i didnt mean! I just got caught up, that's all)

Love,

Motha Lisa.





FACT:
There is not 1 documented case in the U.S.A of a death caused by chicken!
(I can back that up!)

:]

the camping trip has been canceled until further notice :[

STILL ILL

she will kiss you til your lips bleed
but she will not take her dress off.

this is something i gotta get myself out of.

lexi & ricardo are bitches.



:p

have i mentioned that i miss my fucking friends. >:[

he's falling for me.


ima douche bag.

:]

:D



trip.

I ATE TODAY! & i dont ENTIRELY feel like throwing up.

thats a first in the past week or so

I dont want to grow up.

its time to be young.

wow.
the heartache hit me a little late.

does your mother sew?


::BAMMMMMM::

get her to sew that.



im not sure why, but that explains how i feel right now.

so monday-next tuesday,
i work 35.5 hours.
working 6 hours almost everyday.
wtfff.
thats not even legal. today is my only day off until monday.
but its chill i can hang, i need the money anyway.
okay, so my dad is basically saying he doesnt want me going to coachella.
wtf.
i got a free ride.
i saved like five hundred bucks [tickets&hotel] & he wont even let me go.
its not chill.
i might have to just ditch everything & go.
run away, you knowww :D
but heyy,
todayyyy, on my day off,
im going to be doing some adventuringg.
first school,
then come home clean.
try to meet adrian at the park then if things go as planned,
we'll walk to avalon & sepulveda basically to get me my Helio :D
thennnnn,
we'll get on the bus & go to his house where we will play
GUITAR HEROOOOO TWOOOOO!

then we'll chill & ill come home with my memories & thoughts of running away so i can go to coachella.
then maybe ill join the circus.

its amazing how people & things change.


"do you have the time?"

"nobody has the time, its not something that can be owned. Time is free to everybody!"

tonight is gonna be dankkk.
getcrunkk.
:D

with ma girlllsssss<333

ambbbbaaa i cant waiittt.
like 2 weeeekkksss :D

i think i hate being lied to more than anything else.
even if its a really small lie.